What a wonderful book! I recommend it to all singles, wives, mothers, and anyone who has ever been discouraged by his/her own weaknesses, but really wants to love God and people. Jennifer Foster urged me to read it, lent me her copy (which I proceeded to spill coffee all over) and wrote the following on the opening page: "Welcome to a most satisfying exploration of the human soul and spirit man. May this journey be of great benefit and lead to much reflection and growth." For me, it has been and done just that. Thank you, Jennifer!
Since no one can put it better than author, Katherine Mortimer, I will let her do the talking. I limited myself to this handful of favorite quotes from her journal:
On the importance of sticking it out when people actually have the guts to speak the truth to us, because few actually will: "'I feel very sorry for you, dear,' mother replied. 'But you must bear with me. Other people will see your faults, but only your mother will have the courage to speak of them.'" (p. 5)
On God's faithfulness to sanctify His redeemed: "'My dear Katy,' she said, 'I wish I could make you see that God is just as willing, and just as able to sanctify, as He is to redeem us. It would save you so much weary, diappointing work.'" (p. 15)
On God's love for us: "If there is any one truth I would gladly impress on the mind of a young Christian, it is just this, that God notices the most trivial act, accepts the poorest, most threadbare little service, listens to the coldest, feeblest petition and gathers up with parental fondness all our fragmentary desires and attempts at good works. Oh, if we could only begin to conceive how He loves us, what different creatures we should be!" (p. 61)
On Sanctification: "Remember that it is His will that you should be sanctified, and that the work of making you holy is His, not yours." (p. 82)
On counting the cost: "The idea of seeking holiness had never so much as crossed my mind. And even now it seems like presumption for such a one as I to utter so sacred a word. And I shrink from committing myself to such a pursuit, lest after a time I should fall back into the old routine. And I have an undefined, wicked dread of being singular, as well as a certain terror of self-denial and loss of all liberty. But no choice seems left to me. Now that my duty has been clearly pointed out to me, I do not stand where I did before. And I feel, mingled with my indolence and love of ease and pleasure, some drawing towards a higher and better life." (p. 85)
On mothering multiple children: "'A mother,' she went on, 'receives her children one at a time, and gradually adjusts herself to gradually increasing burdens. But you take a whole houseful upon you at once, and I am sure it is too much for you.'" (p. 117)
On God's compassion for his children: "But there is an under-current of peace that is not entirely disturbed by any outside event. In spite of my follies and my shortcomings, I do believe that God loves and pities me, and will yet perfect that which concerneth me. It is a great mystery. But so is everything." (p. 118)
On having a third child: "She says I shall now have one mouth the more to fill, and two feet the more to shoe; more disturbed nights, more laborious days, and less leisure for visiting, reading, music, and drawing. Well! this is one side of the story, to be sure, but I look at the other. Here is a sweet, fragrant mouth to kiss; here are two more feet to make music with their pattering about my nursery. Here is a soul to train for God, and the body in which it dwells is worthy all it will cost, since it is the abode of a kingly tenant. I may see less of friends, but I have gained one dearer than them all, to whom, while I minister in Chist's name, I make a willing sacrifice of what little leisure for my own recreation my other darlings had left me. Yes, my precious baby, you are welcome to your mother's heart, welcome to her time, her strength, her health, her tenderest cares, to her life-long prayers! Oh, how rich I am, how truly, how wondrously blest!" (p. 240)
On making home a heaven on earth: "But, oh! I am so selfish, and it is so hard to practice the very law of love I preach to my children! Yet I want this law to rule and reign in my home, that it may be a little heaven below, and I will not, no, I will not, cease praying that it may be such, no matter what it costs me." (p. 241)
On the sacred vocation of motherhood: "Then you will permit me to say that when you speak contemptuously of the vocation of maternity, you dishonor, not only the mother who bore you, but the Lord Jesus Himself, who chose to be born of a woman, and to be ministered unto by her through a helpless infancy." (p. 277)
On being wives and mothers: "Home again, and full of the thousand cares that follow the summer and precede the winter. But let mothers and wives fret as they will, they enjoy these labors of love, and would feel lost without them. For what amount of leisure, ease, and comfort would I exchange husband and children and this busy home? (p. 345)